Saturday, April 30, 2005

Been feeling sick lately....

Been sick for the past few days, which has sucked. Was so bad yesterday, I called in sick, and I normally don't like to do that. But when you can barely talk, and I work in retail, what would be the point? And, I was thinking it woulad make it worse.
The best thing about it, was the timing.... I can't talk to my girlfriend for 9 whole days!! But with me being sick, and barely able to talk, this lets me rest my throat, and hopefully come Wednesday, I will be all well.
Speaking of my girlfriend, I miss her, alot. She asked me to limit my IM's that I send her, so I have been doing as she has asked. *sighs* There is more to this then I am letting on, but I am not going to delve into it here. Just really missing her right now.
Was gonna make this longer, but I am going to cut it short.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Bush administration switches gears, releases terror report

Bush administration switches gears, releases terror report

I am so glad that they are publishing it. Just shows that there war on terrorism is going as planned, and in all actuality, going bad. Doesn't help when they invaded a nation under false pretenses, but BushCo can do no wrong....

Oh, and they are required to publish this, by Congress. So glad we have an adminstration that works so well with others... NOT!

Lugar Predicts Committee Will OK Bolton

Lugar Predicts Committee Will OK Bolton

Two things stand out in this article.

McClellan also contended that any lawmaker who votes against Bolton is opposed to revamping the United Nations, which has drawn U.S. criticism for scandals surrounding the oil-for-food program that governed aid to prewar Iraq.

Like I was telling a friend just now, thanks for telling them how they should feel. Do they need all need to goose step?

Majority Leader Bill Frist, R-Tenn., is considering procedural maneuvers to bring Bolton's nomination to the full Senate even if the committee fails to approve it, other Senate aides said Wednesday.

Sen. Christopher J. Dodd of Connecticut said it best: "If that happens, then what's the point of having a committee,"



As Think Progress said, "Is this what it means to be a compassionate conservative?"

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Just want to say this.....

I love my girlfriend, with all my heart. She's been on my mind alot lately, just can't seem to stop thinking about her.
I love you princess!

Saturday, April 23, 2005

My girlfriend and I.

Been spending alot of time with my girlfriend lately, which I love to do. Her voice is like music, I could listen to her all day, and just lose myself in her voice. I really cannot wait til I move, to be with her. Yea, I do get scared, cause that will be a major change, but she is worth it. That, and so much more.
She sends me txt messages, and I need to figure out how I want to keep them. I think it would be nice to read them again in the future sometime. I have a notoriously bad memory, and it helps me remember things. Most days it's a curse, but sometimes it's a blessing... though I would rather remember things.
I thought I had lost them yesterday, and I was like, what the hell. Then I looked into some more, and I found them, but I felt like I had lost something important.

Thought I just lost this entry, as I wasn't logged in, and when I hit publish, it asked me to log in. Glad I had read that they have that "recover post" function, and even better that it actually worked.

No more peanuts for me.

Had some peanuts last couple nights, and while I like them alot, I avoid them for a reason. Now I have another reason...
I woke up this morning hacking up what seemed to be my left lung, but it was a piece of a peanut lodged in my throat, and I guess it started aggravating me this morning. Was fnally able to dislodge it, but was pretty uncomfortable.

Friday, April 22, 2005

Winnipeg girl charms Bay Street

Winnipeg girl charms Bay Street

Nice little story, on how one person can make a difference. Brought a tear to my eye.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

U.S. Senate: Legislation & Records Home > Votes > Roll Call Vote

U.S. Senate: Legislation & Records Home > Votes > Roll Call Vote

How can anyone vote against this? Especially a vet (read Inouye)? We should be providing the funding to protect our troops, and yet, we had 39 Senators who voted against this.



Wow, just wow.
Is this part of a coverup by Bushco, or just something stupid the FBI is doing? Is Osama a US citizen to be able to get that right?

Bolton/Bush's Stumbling Block: Colin Powell

Bolton/Bush's Stumbling Block: Colin Powell

Everything I read about this guy, says that he should NOT be the ambassador to the UN, and I hope this is the nail in the coffin.
Seriously, why should he be the ambassador, when he says things like "If the U.N. secretary building in New York lost 10 stories, it wouldn't make a bit of difference."
No, we don't need him.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Popes and gardening.

Nope, they have nothing in common, or nothing that I know of, but they do for me.
Just finished planting my garden, only took about four hours to do, and man, am I tired.
And we have a new pope (habemus papam!). Bothers me that some people are calling him a Nazi. The way I see it, he was 14 when he joined Hitler's Youth, so how does that make him a Nazi, he was still a kid.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

DVD player is broke.

So a friend was having me download something (no clue as to what, but I think its music), and I figured I would watch a movie while it is doing it. Can't really do anything on the internet while it's doing that. Couldn't find Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, and I have no idea where that's at. So I popped in Hotel Rwanda, and it doesn't play. The VCR part works, but not the DVD. That so sucks, now I have to find the receipt, and the box, and take it to where I bought it, er, no, I can't, its been over three months! *sighs*

Sore arm.

My arm doesn't feel sore today, which is cool. Kind of tired though, I slept okay, alarm went off, and slept for an extra hour or so. I really need to get out of that habit, I know I can find something to do during that time.

Mother's boyfriend made it in last night, he's an okay guy. Just very set in his ways. I get to put up with him for 2 1/2 weeks. Yay me

Just went and checked for open ports at Steve Gibson's website, and I have one open. Gonna have to look into that, when I get off work, and try either to close it, or put it into stealth mode.

Friday, April 15, 2005

Good day.

Just spent the entire day with my girlfriend, and I'm in a very good mood. Love being able to do it, and not a guilty thought about work. Just did alot of talking, learned a couple things about her; just overall a very good day.

My left arm is feeling sore though, not sure why. Just really sore.

New version of Firefox is out; 1.03. Got it on this computer, and trying to now on my laptop, but the status bar is not moving at all, so I may have to do it the old-fashioned way. But all my extensions seem to be working fine. Getting a theme now, Noia 2.0 (eXtreme) 2.82, as the default is kind of bland.

What people will do for a person they love.

So my girlfriend asked me to play hookie today, and I was torn on doing it, and going to work. It is turkey season, but it started today, and not tomorrow like I had thought. Not sure how busy they get on the actual day, but I do know they get busy on the day before. I do feel kind of bad for my work, but my girlfriend did ask me, and it's so incredibly hard for me to say no to her.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Light headedness.

Not sure what happened, but I was sitting here, and I got real light headed. Was pretty discomforting to say the least.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Military Free Zone

Military Free Zone

Under the No Child Left Behind Act, if you attend a public high school, your school system is required to turn over YOUR private information to the US military unless you OPT OUT! Sec 9528 of The No Child Left Behind Act gives you the right to OPT OUT! by turning in a form signed by your guardian or parent stating that you do not want the military to have access to your private information.

What in the world would they want that information, and why are we just now starting to hear about it?!


All but two of the dogs are gone! Had to wake up a little early, to help one of mother's friends load up the van, but that was no biggy, I just went back to bed after that.
Speaking of mother's friends, our neighbor came by yesterday while I was at work, and she asked him if he could till the land, where I want to plant my garden. He tried to do it with a shovel, and apparently it was too hard, so he is going to try and use his tiller, but he doesn't know if it is strong enough.... kind of makes me wonder if thats a good place for me to plant my garden then.

Today is the last day for the free music on Pepsi bottle caps, from iTunes. Looking at my iTunes, I have 123 songs, and 7 free songs I can still get. So 130 songs, all for free. I love free :)

Sunday, April 10, 2005

The sun just went supernova.

But not in the literal sense. I have gotten back with my ex-girlfriend. I was talking to an old friend of mine, and she was asking me (worried?) if I would get back with her, and I said something along the lines of, anything is possible, just like the sun could go supernova. It's possible, but it's just not going to happen.
But it did.

Feels different too, but not in a bad way. Feels like, almost like we were first together, but not quite. Probably because you can only ever get that feeling once in a relationship. I may try to post more about that later... doing the five minute runs again today, so it's really hard to do this.

I didn't at first want to go back with her, for several reasons. The main one is, she deserves better. I still don't think she believes me on what I said, but it is true. I told her I felt like a loser, and I have nothing to offer her. She vehemently denied that, she said I have myself to offer to her.
In the end, we reconciled, and are back together. So all is well with the world.

She knows about this blog as well, and I think she will come here and read it. I just want to say this to you princess. I love you hun, more then anything in the world. Within you, I lose myself, without you, I find myself wanting to be lost again. =)

Also told her about the 2 notebooks, the journals I had been keeping. I started reading some to her, and she started crying. She wanted to know why I never told her. It is, and will be therapeutic for me to keep them. That's the reason why I kept them, and the reason why I will keep doing them. It keeps my sanity. As for not telling her, no "big" reason really. Kind of felt like she wouldn't be happy about it, or would want to know what I had written in them daily. I think I mentioned it elsewhere in my blog. Ahhh, here it is, took me a few minutes to find.

Went to take a shower this morning, and I went to check my nursery. Wow, the first thing I noticed, was the onion smell! Boy, are they growing! Can't wait til I put them outside, and see how they do out there. Just need to till the land first, which I am so not looking forward in doing. (Does that make sense?)

Saturday, April 09, 2005

DeLay Says Federal Judiciary Has 'Run Amok,' Adding Congress Is Partly to Blame

The New York Times > Washington > DeLay Says Federal Judiciary Has 'Run Amok,' Adding Congress Is Partly to Blame

Wow, just wow. There is, and has to be a separation of powers. And here comes the Republicans wanting to change everything, because things aren't going there way.


Thursday, April 07, 2005


Chatted with my ex last night, and there were tears involved. *sighs* So hard to type right now, but not for the reason most people would guess. Just having to let some dogs out every five minutes, and well, you try to write something when you are being interrupted every five minutes.
She ended up asking me, "If you could tell me one thing, without ANY worry about how I'd feel...what would you say?" I said, that things would have worked out. Say what you want, but that is how I feel. I guess I used to have archaic feelings about love. I thought love was able to conquer all, that if you truly loved someone, that everything would fall in place, and you would end up happily ever after. But it doesn't. All my dreams and hopes, shattered, and I'm guessing, irrevocably. That right there, I can't describe the void I feel.
She told me to tell her that I love her. I did. I do love her, more then anything in the world I do. And the way she asked me, I don't know, I know her very well, but the way she asked me, hard to describe, but it felt like it was very important to her that I told her.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Finally got an email application.

Yea, I'm happy :)

It's Office XP. Found one bad thing so far about it (Outlook), and that it doesn't allow you to automatically add a person to your contact list on a reply. That's got to be one of the most incredibly lame things I have ever seen. And to top it off, there isn't anything free to use, to get that function. Did download one that is shareware, but I get an illegal operation when I try to do a couple options on it. *sighs* Ah well, at least I got something.

Monday, April 04, 2005

Internet Week > online security technology > Company Bypasses Cookie-Deleting Consumers > March 31, 2005

Internet Week > online security technology > Company Bypasses Cookie-Deleting Consumers > March 31, 2005

Gah, if people don't want cookies on there computers, what makes them think this will fly. "Let's just stuff it out down there throat anyways!" Fucking morons.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Daylight savings time.

Blah, lost an hour of sleep over that, now I just feel really tired. I had woken up at 10:00 AM, fiddled around for a little bit, then decided I wanted more sleep, but didn't really sleep all that well. They should get rid of DST, or just keep it that way, year round.
Still no email, *sighs* and the messages are piling up. Just on my main account, there is over 400, most aren't personal, mainly from mailing lists. Not sure about my other email accounts (I use different email accounts fro different reasons, mailing lists, website signups, etc.). Hopefully I can get something going, on my next day off.

Friday, April 01, 2005

How much am I worth?

The pope and I

Was reading on how grave of a condition is, with the pope, and here I am shedding a tear for him. No joke (it is April Fool's Day after all), me, the atheist. Well, most days I feel like I am an atheist, some times I feel like I am agnostic.
Just read the definitions of both, and I guess I remember agnostic wrong. I seem to remember it being there is a God, but he is uncaring. The definition at Wikipedia, if I read it correctly, is that it is unknown if there is a higher power(s).
Agnosticism is the philosophical and theological view that spiritual truths, such as the existence of God, gods or deities, is either unknown or inherently unknowable.
Regardless, when the Pope does pass away, I hope he goes peacefully.